Here are a few things that I’ve realized in my adult life. No one gives a fuck about you while you’re here. But when you’re gone they speak so good of you or ask the lord why did he take you so soon. And it’s the same if you’re not dead but just not in their lives anymore. Whether they speak good, bad, or ugly about it doesn’t matter. The fact is now that you’re gone, you’re a constant in their mind unlike when you were around. I also know that no one gives a fuck about what you do as long as you’re doing it. You can give your all to someone, damn near kill yourself trying love and support them and you sound crazy when you just want a thank you or you sound crazy when you want to get 8 hours of sleep. But when you’re gone or you stop trying, ppl start to notice, saying things like you’ve changed and you don’t treat me like you used to. And if you’re not in their life they either realize that “woah I messed up I had it easy” or tell their peers that you never did anything. But again you’re a topic of their conversation and someone they think about since you’re not around. Don’t think that ppl care about you expressing yourself because it usually goes in one ear and out the other. You show love and praise to someone and they tell you it isn’t enough, you compliment someone else