You keep pushing me away,
you keep pushing me to do things I don’t want to do,
you put me in this place,
I’m supposed to have this happy home,
but when I’m at home I feel like such a stray,
taking it day by day,
searching the internet to see if I’m the right to feel this way,
but it’s always back to the phone,
not for me so often but you act like that’s the only thing you’ve ever known,
like I put in my effort and you say I’m crowding you and want to be left alone,
like I only see you from the pictures that you post,
your ex-boyfriends and thirsty randoms are the ones that comment the most,
and when I’m in front of you,
you treat me like a ghost or a spirit,
maybe you’re afraid and act like I’m not here,
I can tell you that I love you, and no response,
but if I leave and slam the door is the only time you’ll hear it,
I’m just sick of all the games,
like why do I have to chase you,
Pretend that you’re covered in flames,
am I supposed to be the fireman,
because of my life, I had you included in my plans,
get old together,
Enjoying our 50th anniversary,
But your attention was with someone else,
When I realized, is when my eyes began to swell,
I guess it’s all good to you,
I guess one day you’ll be happy too,
It has to come because you’re beautiful,
I won’t be there and maybe that’s the way it is,
Dodging a bullet and catching one felt the same in this instance,
Time will keep pushing forward, and so will I,
But I can’t lie and say that I don’t miss you every once in a while