I’ve decided to start a journal, I think it’s the only thing that’s gonna keep me sane. I’m not sure if I should introduce myself since it is my journal but I feel like it’s best if I do. My name is Alex and I’d like to think I live a normal life. I live with my girlfriend Jessica and I’d like to admit that I’ve started to journal because of the state of my relationship with her. I feel like we’re at a point in our relationship where everything is too routine. We are rarely intimate and she feels a little standoffish when we’re around each other.
I’ve noticed that it’s been raining more often, and it’s draining my desire to get out of bed and go to work in the mornings. I usually get up around 5 am to make an hour-long drive to work but Jessica doesn’t go in til 8 and I don’t want to wake her up when I’m getting ready. There have been times I’ve made too much noise in the morning and I’ve been chewed out when I got home.
When I first started my job 7 years ago, smh 7 years wasted, I thought I was going to make a change and an impact on the planet. They sold me this dream that I was going to experience this amazing adventure or travel and