False Expectations

Reaching out for a lifeline, 

but it seems like there’s no one there to pick up, 

maybe it’s just my luck, 

maybe if I close my eyes, 

things will be just fine, 

or maybe I’ll just be stuck, 

I feel like the weight of the world has been exaggerated by my decisions, 

and the pain in my back was never in any of my visions, 

poor mistakes and broken hearts, 

things I wish I coulda said but I didn’t and it ripped me apart, 

from the inside, 

fake smile on my face but I tried, 

knowing your worth and value is depressing when you realize you gave it away for cheaper, 

especially over and over again to people who made you feel like you weren’t a keeper, 

how do you continue to give your all when all you have is never enough, 

how do you give your all to someone new when your past experiences impair your trust,

Seems like a story that’s been told for a thousand years, 

But consistently relived due to stubbornness and inexperience,

Do you think it’s just self-abuse vs facing fears, 

Or do you think it’s something that I’m overthinking because it’s not that serious?