I’m up late af,
sleepless and tired,
my thoughts racing,
keeping me wired,
am I supposed to be here,
where am I supposed to go,
I just want to be clear,
I really don’t know,
swaying back and forth from dreams to reality,
reality back to dreams,
this life has taken hold of me,
got me splitting at the seams,
feeling alone while still making the team,
it’s just this endless cycle,
and every time I think I’ve broken it,
my tired mind hits me with the same shit,
forced to relive the traumas and romanticize the bad times,
Living in my memories
Struggling to make out the view as I peer through the blinds
Are there better days ahead,
Am I destined to live this type of life,
Are my mistakes going to forever haunt me,
Do I need to change,
I feel like I have,
I want to leave the past in the past,
One day I will,
And my whole will no longer be half