Why Do I?

Why do I feel alone

Whether it’s my parents not wanting me to make the same mistakes they made even though I’m on a completely different path or have unrealistic expectations that I could never live up to

Or maybe because my sex drive and confidence are as low as they ever could have been but maybe its because my stress level is at an all-time high

Or maybe it is because I never put myself first

Or because I left my hometown at an early age because I knew I would never grow

Or because I knew I wasn’t going to make it to old age because I was murdered because of circumstances

Or because when I complain I always say I

Or because the people that I love don’t understand how people can take advantage of me or use me while they are currently taking advantage of me and using me

Or when I say I love you the response I get is usually empty

Or I don’t have a safe space because it’s always crowded

Or maybe it’s because I know that I’ll never get a genuine response to anything I’m saying right now